You can train in opening or closing. It is your choice. You can relax open and feel all alive as love’s spontaneous ripples arising in resonance with an infinite webwork of unseen influences, lives given
and taken, endlessly playing toward no end in sight. Or, you can close as unlove, afraid to feel as the openness that lives us all and into which we all die. Closing, waiting to love, you will suffer as your
pulling back re-enforces the solidity of separation in which you feel stuck, trapped, and alone, seeking for the profound love and openness from which you are presently retracting. David Deida, “Waiting To Love”
So simple to open
So hard to close
Yet, habit once started
stubbornly clings to
its entrenched moorings.Linger in the softenings
of spaces once filled
with no truth, no lifeSoften to the knowing
that well spent is
well done. YES! YES!Open . . . ahhhhhhhhhhh
Loving the deliciousness,
Lather yourself in the
slumbering sensations
of LOVE alive in YOU!
Awakening to Pleasure!
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Hi Guys:
In addition to what was said on the call today about how helpful these calls (and audios) are to all of us:
Adela, you inspired me to join these sorts of calls in-person for a previous group we’d both signed up for At that time, I read your description of your juicy and wonderful experience and how much the calls enhanced your gains from that and other programs of which I was also part. From then on I’ve also done so with every program I do, and it hadn’t even occurred to me to be attracted to doing so, even seeming “silly,” prior to Adela’s post about the energetic value of connecting on such calls!!!
I would stand on my terrace and picture Maria in Scotland, Adela across the river from NY in NJ, and others met on those calls, some of whom are here or listing to these calls. Everytime I’v been on the terrace or looked out that window, that image and connection has revived.
And here we are 4 (?) years later and Adela’s hosting these empowering calls (and their audios) which I now wouldn’t miss, and have signed up for the next program already!
BTW, anyone who didn’t catch the cable channel I mentioned my CD being played on, it’s Music Choice (on my cable system that’s heard on Channel 125, scroll thru the channels to Ch. 125-31), Singers & Standards). They have 40 genres, of which this is one that’s represented. I’ve heard many unknown singers of whom I’m already aware, and unknown-to-me singers, played, along with old favorites and lesser-known jazzy singers (no scatting, but includes a mix of lots of the oldie-goodies). I’d been told by my air-play promo person (who’s on our spiritual trip, BTW), how stiff the competition is. There are many millions of CDs produced a year, these days, more all the time as it becomes cheaper and easier to produce them by indie artists; many jazz artists produce each year, especially female singers! In NY I’ve heard it said if you shot a cannon down 7th Ave. you’d hit a female jazz singer. Not a pretty image, but you get the idea.
Everyday I’ve gotten reports on more airplay from Kate Smith, my promo lady in Chicago. She’s developed so much trust with her contacts over 10 years which I see in emails from them she forwards, and it really helps me now.
Thanks again for your support, everyone.
Love,
Elli
It’s so wild to tell other musicians and singers about my CD being accepted for on-air rotation on “Music Choice, Singers & Standards” and their reply, “Oh, Yeah. That’s the music channel I listen to all the time!” Thought I was the only one. When I walked dogs and cat-sat for 15 years one client would leave another of Music Choice’s channels (of 40 genres) playing for her dog, Max, when she was out. I wondered where she got it and finally recently, surfing through all the channels, found it at 125 (31) on our cable system and was knocked out hearing people I knew in NY, people I’d heard in the ’50s on NY jazz radio (AM) and everything in between, new and old favorites. Now I’m going to be ON it!!! Can you even fathom that?
Last night’s Kurio gig had me somewhat harried earlier on (opening night, when Adela brought her energy there, was the BEST night so far, in every respect). The place was packed and somewhat noisy most of the night, my producer Patrick heard me at a live gig for the first time, a non-pro-drummer (singer) friend added sampled percussion sounds to our guitar/bass/voice trio, which sometimes threw me off, my assistant Alison who’s helping to book me on future gigs, heard me at my own gig (2 full sets, not just sitting in on a tune or two), for the first time, a sub bassist (very good but nevertheless causing change), and who knows what else?
I had an interesting realization about how it felt when describing some of it as “demons making themselves felt in my head.” I had been defining those demons as real, seeing them as lying in wait, empowering them with capability to effect me unless or until I fully managed myself and “overrode” or “overcame” them, not really acknowledging that I made them all up in the first place, but giving them authorship and off-and-on different amounts of control over my singing. It made me laugh to see “them” that new way.
Love,
Elli
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Love,
Elli